yeah yeah yeah

ok.i havent written, in a while. oh well. i havent been doing anything really. me and elizabeth have been hanging out at my house for the last two days drinking mint tea and chain smoking. i was a breath of fresh air. well actually very polluted air but it was refreshing. we stayed outside until 4:30 last night. and the two nights before that. i guess were just regular insominacs.

i feel happier than i did three days ago. i lost the two pounds i gained at the beach. and now im on a 600 calorie a day or less diet. ive been doing really good. and if i happen to go over. i just drink vinegar. i dissolves all the present food in your stomach. it feels weird too. once you drink it your insides feel all cold. and i have a new obsession with peroxide. and it wont kill you. at least a little bit wont kill you. good to know. it works just like vinegar too but a more accelerated version. and it feels better than vinegar. well actually you feel kinda sick for a while with vinegar but no different with a little bit of peroxide in your system. only a little bit though. too much might actually kill you. but im not dead yet. and ive been eating pretty much nothing but crackers and skinless chicken for the past three days.although i did pig out a little bit yesterday. i think i had like 800 calories. oh well though i drank like half a cup of vinegar and hopefully the vinegar is working and my body isnt actually absorbing all those calories. because i would like it much better if i was only absorbing about 300 calories instead of the 600 im allowing myself. i really want to be 110 pounds. it would make me happier to be 105. but i can deal with 110. im pretty tall so it works either way. but i do really really want to be 105 at least by thanksgiving. before will be better. i think im going to try to get there before thanksgiving rolls around. but i am doing pretty good. i mean i weighed 127 before summer. and at the start of the last school year i weighed 138. so im okay with being 120 at the moment. but i promise myself that number is going to be reduced significantly. i just want to be as skinny as i was when i was in seventh grade. i was 106. and then i turned into a fat cow. but im working on it. i have a goal and im going to stick to it damnit. because if i really want something i can dedicate myself to it. no problem. and i am going to be 105 by thanksgiving. other wise i wont be a happy camper.

ok enough about my current obsession.

i really miss my boyfriend. i havent seen him since before i left to go to mississippi/the beach. and that pisses me off so bad. but i do get to at least talk to him everyday. and i know i do love him. we fight about little things all the time too but its cute. and i still love him of course. and that bitch better love me. i mean he does tell me enough. it so cute too. he makes me really happy. happier than ive been in a long time. and i do love it. damn.


well kids. i think its time for me to end my latest entry because this is a long one compared to previous entrys. and i know your not going to read the whole thing anyway. so here it is. the end.


oh yeah. heres a new song you should listen too. just go to the link and let the page load completely. and listen. if you dont like it then sorry. but its your choice to find out.


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